♥ADDICTED TO YOU♥

2011-04-27T09:33:00.000-07:00

I fucking pity myself.dont know when i can found
the right guy.I thought he's the one but he could only
make me cry and getting mad at me even for a small
matter.
It sucks to always cries and getting scolded.
Not only ur parents but the one u loved and depends
on does that to u,it sucks big time.
They wont understand,he wont understand cos they
thought they're too matuared and they are
actually in a right position to scold me but actually they're
not.
They're just making me giving up in life and making me feel
so low.They're just making me not worth being their daughter,
girlfriend.

2011-04-23T02:32:00.000-07:00

You think im pretty,

without any make up on

You think im funny,

when i tell the puch line wrong

I know you get me

so i let my walls come down

Before you met me

i was alright,but things were kinda heavy

You brought me to life

Now every February,you'll be my valentine

Let's go all the way tonight

No regrets,just love

we can dance until we die

You and I,

we'll be young forever

You make me feel like im living a

Teenage Dream,

the way you turn me on

Cant sleep let's run away,Dont ever look back

My heart stops,

when you look at me

Just one touch,now baby i believe

This is real so take the chance

and Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali and got drunk on the Beach

Got a motel and

build a fort out of sheets

I finally found you,

my missing puzzle piece

IM COMPLETE

2011-04-23T02:31:00.000-07:00

My Superman is a good kisser:D

2011-03-17T08:45:00.000-07:00

How we fell in love with each other,the sweetness of relationship etc

really miss those days.Uve been my backbone since then but now,it starting

to break bits by bits..

Everythings changed.We bothed change.

It really pulled me down when ure getting more selfish.

The love is gone lil by lil as days goes by..

Im really getting used to it and my heart now are numb,seriously.

Everything u did were nothing new to me and nothing to shocked or sad about.

All while,u didnt appreciate what i did for u.

I cant pull myself together to go through all this nonsence alone.

Oh God please , i had enough.I just want to live my life peacefully&happily.

Please take away all the bad things,unwanted person in my life so that i can

have a blissful life.

Kemelut Di Muara Kaseh - Ziana Zain

2011-03-04T18:19:00.000-08:00

2011-03-02T04:17:00.001-08:00

i just dont know where i went wrong sometimes that he kept

being mad&angry with me.

i sacrifice alot for him all this year but think it is a waste.he didnt

even sees it.if he really do love me,understands me,he wont keep

hurting me.

ive cried alot for him&im not sure whether im supposed to

or did he really worth my tears..

2years with him and not sure i should still counts cos it makes

no difference if our relationshp is 10yrs old cos i know ill still

be hurt.

im just more confused right now.im not sure if he is the one

i want to spend my whole life with.

before we even get married,he already hurt me this much

im sure it will be more if we both already have our own family.

2011-02-17T05:48:00.000-08:00

Some will laugh at us,Some will be happy to see the state now of our relationship.
U know what im talking abt be.just continue doing this and all the sore looser will
be happy..

2011-02-14T07:06:00.000-08:00

Ok today Valentine's Day and almost everybody gets

gifts from love ones.

But i get nothing and i dont give a damn!dh basi.haha.

Every February ill not be excited abt Valentine cos

there's one thing that im excited abt more important than

Valentine:)

Its IRAZA Anniversary and it falls on 17February!

tk sabar nak mampos ok!ish!excited nak mampos when comes to

FEBRUARY cos it marks our Anniversary

and i akan ingt tu selalu ok syg.iloveyou bucuk2.

mwaaaaaaaaaarx!

I wanna make this 17thFebruary2011 a

most memorable one cos i didnt ever get to celebrate 2nd year

anniversary with my love before and my dear Khairul Azahar,

you break the record.You're the first guy:)haha.

2011-02-11T01:11:00.000-08:00

Kay smlm tk tawu aper angin aleh2 bbyMok nak drink so late at night we go bangkit 7-11

and get a small bottle of scotch.(padahal we both are working the nxt morn.)

Like usual,play monopoly deal while drinking&who loose,forfeit.haha.tkde keje.

So mcm biase jgk lah me yg slalu kalah,so forfeit!byk kali!siak nyer Mok,muka ada

senyum jer if aku kalah.hmph!notty boy..

Had a great time actually,while drinking and main monopoly deal,we both talks abt

our work.Die dgn camp camp camp,me dgn my new work&collouges:)

AH AMEK KAU IRAZA!the next day,both were late for work!kanchiong semcm.haha.

2011-01-27T05:57:00.000-08:00

How i wish he's not the one who hurt me this much..
how i wish he's the one that support me..
how i wish he's the one who lend me his shoulder to cry on now..
how i wish he's a reasonable guy..
Although what i wished for he cant fulfilled,im still happy with him.
I REALLY LOVE YOU LOTS DEAR.

2011-01-27T04:40:00.000-08:00

I rela tk keje(bkn nk makan hasil u)daripade asek kene tudoh or u fikir bkn2.
Mcm mane nk keje gnie.bosan!tkde trust langsong..

2011-01-27T04:39:00.000-08:00

Since the day we knew u,one by one start to fall for you..check2 dgn kau skali bie.

2011-01-25T07:12:00.000-08:00

Right now im tight up with work.so friends,ira dh tk free.

No more like lst time can teman anyone jlnjln,partyparty.

NOW BUSY GILER OK.

My work far frm b's place bt near to mine so now after knock out frm work,

HOME SWEET HOME!

Having hard time at the moment nk meet babyMok.

i cant complained cos end up it will does us good

so kene endure.Go irAza u guys can do it!:)

Lets coundown baby.

I really cant wait for the day:)hees..

dont care what other may says bt so long ure with me,

ill always be on cloud nine,You know why*cheeky smile*.

Already planned what activites we're gg to do and where we want

to go on tht day,excited gilerrrrr punye!!pls come fast 17Feb

seriously cant wait mcm nk tdo all the way and wakes

up on the 17 Feb.Ok i mrepek.Tapi sumpah i excited!

Hope everything goes on smoothly on tht day:)

hip hip hurraaay!!

2011-01-11T22:22:00.000-08:00

I dont want much for my wedding.I want these please.....total cost,$2k

And this Tiffany&Co Bracelet i nak for my birthday k bie.

*kening naik2* Please:)

2011-01-11T21:00:00.000-08:00

Biar Cinta kita tumbuh harum mewangi

dan dunia menjadi saksinya ...

Demi cinta kita aku akan menjaga cinta

yg telah kita bina..

Massari - Real Love VIDEO!!!

2011-01-11T20:07:00.000-08:00

Baik ira!!!lagu lame but i like!

Dia - Fauziah Latiff

2011-01-11T19:45:00.000-08:00

To BbyYana , if ure reading this , this is for you beb:)
Be strong aite!if ure fated to be with him u will nothing to loose from this sacrifices.
Just be strong and tempuh segalanye.
and to Effendi , prove it that ure not what they say . Fight for ur rights&love!
Aku will always pray and support you guys.Your love story cant end this way,i believed.
No matter what jgn give up:)
Love you guys lots.Muaaaah!!

2011-01-11T09:23:00.000-08:00

Im not sure whether i should let it out.

It hurts,but i love him.

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [Official Video]

2011-01-11T09:22:00.000-08:00

Boyfriend's favourite=)

2011-01-03T06:21:00.000-08:00

k aku dah buat great mistake on 1stJan2011 .
I lost love's hp . susah bangeeeeettt nak contact sih ! hmph !
Stupid me ! was told to look after a hp pon useless ...boleh hilangkan:(
Sorry love and haikal . All the pic we took cant be uploaded sebab
kan kebodoh-an aku .. hmmmm ...

Ok,had a great time with love on countdown .
When to Singapore Flyers to celebrate countdown cos love nak
tgk magic so we both tk jadi mit the DEWAs&DEWIs at
Boat Quey to join dorng party at 91.3fm .
But after all the fireworks and all , love and me head to boat quey
to meet them and we go supper .
Then Love , haikal , fendi wants to get drunk so i lynkn including
bby yana gue dh mabok rbk . haha .
Then we reached home at 8plus thanks ti citi cab , smrt and blablabla..

Kite dah shagg giler pai love , me , fendi and yana tdo and wakes up
at 6Pm plus lps tu gy mkn at sakura sampai full and aku muntah!
Fuck!
but niway thanks to yana and fendi .. thanks guys .

2010-12-27T21:56:00.000-08:00

LOOK YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR

REFLECTS..

"paku dulang paku serpih

kata org dia yg lebih"

U really want us to play your game,follow your childishness,now we follow

the flow..

layankn kau nye prangaai bdk2 yg org tk kacau life kau beh kau nak

kacau life org then gg around telling ppl the other side of the story.

So immaturaed!

Then MASAALAH yg kau sorang buat dgn kite ramai ramai,

kau taknak cuci taik kau sendiri,end up panggil org cuci kan.WTH?!

Tak pe kita tak psl..kita lagi suke.

Dah buat tak nak own up,buat citer lain nie luh prngi immatured!

kau ni sore looser tau tak?

kau tak leh accept yg ade org lagy hebat dari kau.

kau sepatotnya takpayah ade kwn,

ddk dlm hutan kwn dgn binatang2 kt hutan..

Tapi aku rase,binatang2 pon lari tgk kau..

dorng pon ade kepale otak bkn mcm kau.

Pls luh little girl,semue org ade problem dgn pasangan

die tapi tk babit kan kwn2 die or other ppl ard him .

Lau bf kau kuar dgn kwn2 die and kau tawu dari die

yg kwn die ajak,tk semesti nye kau kene salahkn kwn die berok!

PUCUK PANGKAL DIRI SENDIRI LUH PPN!

Whaaaaaaaaaaaat????LOW CLASS????NO DECENT INCOME????

U make us laugh out loud luhs dear..

Se-low class,low class kite pon,kaw pernah dtg mtk tolong

dgn kite .

Kite tolong dgn segi kewanggan lagy..nie kau panggil

low class and tkder decent income.HAHAHAHA....

Remember this;Dont think the person u like,will like you

Dont think the person u hate also like you..

If your attitude sucks,nobody will like you

including the one that you're nice to.

Jgn ckp prngi org burok,sedangkan prngi kau 10 kali ganda burok

or else kau takkan menggata psl that somebody.

THINK TWICE BEFORE U SAYS SOMETHING.

2010-12-26T00:44:00.000-08:00

Had a great weekends with babylove and friends!Friday-sheesha&party,Saturday-jalan2@Marina Square&Pool-ing,Sunday-Mandek's sis wedding and sumpah aku shagged nw!

Baby were super nice to me this weekends.He really treat me
Well&seriously aku happy and appreciate that.Thanks mok:)
Kalau bley i nak slalu gtu.hehehe....

"Oooleleee....Ooolalaaa....ira dah boncet!
Aza makin boncet!"
"Ooolelee....Ooolalaaa....same same boncet
Same same BONCET!" hahahaha....

I love that b!!!Not forgetting to my another bby
and brother,yana&fendi,thanks alot for everything!
If not bcos of you guys,aku n aza tkley join
Korng..Appreciate it alot !

2010-12-13T00:13:00.000-08:00

Okay,aku skg bored gler.

Hari2 mendaKkkk...Mok,cpt lah abes NS.

Makin nk kat abes makin lmbt plak rase time jln.

Pls,aku slalu kene tgl dgn kaw:(

U hardly have time for me especially when u've

started becaming ambulance's driver..

Off day pon tk mcm off day.Haisssss:(

Dugaan dugaan..hmmm....

Walawpon hari2 together pn rase rindu sgt2..

IRA:I tak sabar u nk kt abis NS.

AZA:Me too.

IRA:Nape u tk sabar??

AZA:Cos i nak cepat2 keje luar..

IRA:Lerr..ingt tk sabar cos u dpt spent time ngn i more.

AZA:Ylh when i dh dpt keje lua,i ade byk duit,hari2 ley ajak

u kua...

IRA: *senyum&rolled eyes*

Andd..Our 2nd Anni is drawing nearer.Seriously aku Tak sabar!

Tapi harap kaw dpt off Mok lau tak..U'll really break my heart.

2010-11-16T05:38:00.000-08:00

(advanced monthsary wishes)

From Bottom Of my Heart;

Nursyairah

2010-11-15T12:48:00.000-08:00

3 MORE MONTHS!!!

Guys lets save up and celebs this year Valentine's Day together again!!

Aku nak this time,semua complete although takde Nasia but someone else,aku nak this year Valentine's pic complete dgn Ezra ade Gf!!PLS GUYS!!

And to my Beloved Ah Tong,Our 2nd Anniversary is in 3months time too..Hope this 2nd Anni will be the most memorable one for me and u..As you know that you're the first guy im with for this long ..

We've been through thick&thin,Ups&Downs together
Alot of sacrifices we made through out you serving NS and now left with a few months.

We've been supporting each other,shower each other with so much love,care&concern and have been pampering each other alot through out our relationship.

2010-10-28T19:44:00.001-07:00

Sometimes i dont know where i went wrong aleh2 he can mrh2 n tunjok
prasaan die..
Aku tk confident his love for me is still there cos lau die btl
syg aku,die tkkn kasi aku nangis n sedih slalu..
haissss.....aku makin tk fhm die.
When aku ckp,try aku mcm die,die mcm aku,aper die rase,die akan
ckp aku nak balas2 balik.But to bkn maksod aku..
aku just nk die tawu aper prasaan aku&how aku rase lau die gitu kat aku.
Die pernah ckp die tknk kehilanggan aku but aku dont think so cos recently,
die ckp dgn aku,die ley move on lau kite berpisah sedangkan
aku,aku akan rase tk tentu arah kalau die tkde.That means what die ckp
tk true.
Aku ape terhadap kaw????Padahal kite pernah ckp,kite tknk org slalu nmpk yg
kaw slalu sakit kn ati aku&aku slalu curang dgn kaw but aper nie??
Lau i carik lelaki lain,u slh kan i,ckp i miang tapi u tawu tak knp i gtu cos u dh tk
pandai jaga prasaan i sedangkan i tried very hard to jaga u,jaga prasaan u.
Mcm mane lagy i nak ckp dgn u pon i dah tk tawu b..
I taknak nie berlarutan..PLS

2010-10-28T09:02:00.000-07:00

Tgh worried gler sal boifie..

Im waiting for his call since just now.

Tried to call him but couldnt get through,msg pon tk reply:(

haisssss.....worried sick sey!tkkn detail die blm abes2 ehk??

tkpernah per mcm gnie..Call me ASAP b:(

jgn luhs buat i upset..

One more thing,tgh fikir whether should go Zouk ke tk

bsk,celebrates Apen nye Bday..

Tak gy mcm serba slh..die ckp bler die nye Bday,aku n Aza tknk go.

HAiyo...bkn aku n aza tknk gy but kite mls nak lyn kan penat die

when dh nk alek nye time..hehe..&lagy no sen so tk fun uhs.

We both try to make it k Apen for tomorrow?

Lau ter tk joi korng,just go ahead&have fun..

&Very very Sorry lau aku&Aza couldnt make it:)

Now , aku tgh bored gler babi!!lau hari masey siang,

i guess,aku dh slack kt rmh Yana.

Bf dh tk crk aku pade tdi lebih baik aku spent

time dgn syg aku lagy satu.hahaha...

Cpt luhs siang!!So aku ley gy umh Yana bsk!!:)

2010-10-25T08:44:00.000-07:00

I dont think i deserved to be shouted at when im actually talking to you nicely.
I Wish u gdnight then u said that i irritate you.do i deserved that?
im trying to change,understd u,talking to u nicely this is what i get afterall...
I just dont know what i did wrong till u always mad at me..

2010-10-25T04:28:00.000-07:00

DEWA NUSANTARA JUARA RIA!

REBORN OF DEWA NUSANTARA

CONGRATZ TO NOOR AZMAN SHAH,

KHALIFAH TERBAIK!

THE SUPPORTERS!!!

2010-10-21T09:08:00.001-07:00

I Have to be responsible,patience and dont easily give up person.

All i want to change is bacause i love u and care about our

relationship.

Feel now our relationship is really shaking but i dont want

it to sink thats why i bother to try to change though

somethings im not happy with,i just have to keep to myself cos i had enough quarelling with u.

Dont want u to live me for one just stupid reason that is i cant understand u..

U are not like before.U are not Aza that i know,that likes his gf to keep looking for him cos by that way he know that the person loves him bt Now , u dont want me to keep calling u.dont want me to keep

looking for u.why?u irritated?

But nevermind,ill just do what u want me to cos i dont want to be a lady that love u but cant understand u..

i love u , love u too much thats why i keep calling u,texting u cos im worried

and still cares about u.Hope u realise that one day.

U said that u will move on if we are not together anymore.i know u are strong enough

but im not.Ill still love u no matter what,ill still love u even if ur love is not for me anymore

cos u have taken my heart and ure part of me dear but ill try my best to move on

*sorb..sorb..*

2010-09-23T22:50:00.000-07:00

First of all,nak bilang,aku dh lame tak blog or on-off blogging cos no mood.

Blogskin aku yg buat aku tk bersemangat and i did not change cos no time.hehe..

Sorry lau my blog berselerak ok guys but hope u guys enjoy reading it:)

THANKS MY SUPERMAN!

Nie bdk kan that day pujok aku when aku tgh cry...

aku suke kaw prangai caring!I really appreciate it alot&aku

saaaaayang kaw byk byk..hehe...

Kaw caring gler nye!!dah lame you tak console i when i tgh sad,

Lps tu,you masak then suap kan i mamam.So Swwweeet!

K now everything has been gg well...except for my weight!I really need

to put some weight DESPRATELY!!

sampai aku gy interview,that lady said aku TOO SKINNY!

lau dah ade org ckp gtu kan,tak maen2 ok,not funni!:(

But when i said to superman that i want to gain weight.macam dulu,

die tak kasi...!

Boifie;"kaw pun on weight for your body but not too

much,mampat2"

Me;"WTH?Aku nak mcm dulu luhs b

pipi tembam:(".

Boifie;"Jgn lah..tak lawa,mcm gini kan ok".

Me;"Huh?!!cengkong sey:("

Boifie;"k lah tembam sikit".

WTH?Kaw mrepek taw b..Aku padahal mcm dulu lagy better,berisi..

lau i gain weight bey cnie kene byk,cnie kene sikit,mcm mane..???

Kaw nie cerewet ehk dulu aku ckp aku kurus,kaw ckp aku dah ok bey now

kaw ckp aku kurus.Bodo btl b i nie..

This time aku dgr ckp kaw.Nxt time gy mati ok!lau kaw xtra2,leave me.

That means u dont love me for who i am,stupid!hahaha...

Boifie gg to enroll his 2a soon i guess in 1mths time.hehe..

YEAH!!DRZ pls...!!aku yg excited.hehe...

cant wait for October,Kompang Comp!!!Go DEWA NUSANTARA..u guys will

always have our support all the way,esp frm us girls*WINK*

2010-09-15T03:51:00.000-07:00

We've talk things out and this is what we want..

To be with each other till eternity.
Prove to others that cinta kita,suci and akan kekal
selamanya...itulah kehendak kami.

Not to let other thinks that he always makes me cry
and
Not to let other thinks that i always have another guy
other than him.

Thats the spirit we want in this relationship.

Kasih syg yg aku beri pada dia dan yg dia beri padaku tidak akan boleh
dibandingkan dgn yg lain because we're happy dgn ape yg kite ade for now.

2010-08-11T09:46:00.001-07:00

i just hate being scolded and i believed you too so jgn ikot suke hati mrh mrh org

2010-04-29T10:26:00.000-07:00

Idk hw to show u nw tht i really2 love u and realise hw important ure to me in my life !! Nie bkn sweet talk!sumpah!i teringt when the time i really2 wants u to be mine n i leave him for u.flashing bk when the time u had to leave me for NS and hw i miss u so much esp during ur 2wks confinement . I really regret n i realisw why i should go with other guy padahal,i knw tht i love u n really cant let u go.hope u feel the same things towards me k dear . I dont want u to be someone's else baby.

2010-03-16T11:24:00.000-07:00

i just cant shut my eyes and goes to sleep cos
my heart is still hurting ..
Aku ingat ini smue hanya mimpi burok tapi ... ini
adalah satu realiti yg aku sendiri tak percaya
ia akan berlaku .
Aku terlalu percaya kn dia .. terlalu syg kan dia
sampai aku tak terfikir yg dia akan tergamak menipu aku ..
Aku jadi keliru aza . Ada kah harus kite terus kan
perhubungan kita ini?
i admit i do love you n still but at the same
time my trust&heart has been broken into million
pieces by you and it need millions stitches to stick it
back like before .
I dont know where im gg to put my face now .
Aku dah bangga bangga kan kau dgn kwn kwn aku .
Aku slalu bilang dorang yg kau adalah lain dari yg lain .
Kau tak pernah tipu aku n aku tawu kau takkan pernah
but now ...
Aku bangga dan bahagia dgn kaw but now when i know , aku
btl2 kecewe .
Now u really make me cant sleep , cant eat ..
You make me mad !
Aku like dah hilang semangat yg selama nie ade..
Aku like dah hilang segalanya!!!
I DONT BELEIVE THAT YOU ACTUALLY LIED TO ME KHAIRUL AZAHAR... !!

2010-03-16T06:05:00.000-07:00

BAEK UH AZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
I LIKE SEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Next time , buat lagy . buat banyak2 k .
i dont mind . u go n find other girls to fuck also
its ok with me . Dah biase uh!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

2010-02-28T23:12:00.000-08:00

Aku dah kelaparan nak mampos,die buAt bodoh jer..nie baru mataer.kalaw kahwin,ntah mcm mane gaknye..aku mati kebuluran agaknye.tak fhm uh aku!selfish nah....haisssss........mataer mcm aper pon aku tak tawu luh die .sanggop buat mataer die gnie.Ini die ckp syg?!wtf!

2010-02-05T03:48:00.000-08:00

i really need someone to talk to.
Deep inside,im really hurt!really really hurt ..!
This rlthnshp has become frm a good to bad one..!
He does not really knw how to make me btl btl btl happy !
Ego die maken kuat!i knw lah bcs he loves me too much but jgn lah
Smpi mcm gtu.haisss....
Seriously,dont knw what has happen to our rlthnshp..
Smaken hari,smaken tk yakin yg die akan syg aku smpi bler ..!
Diyana!i really nid you!i want to cry on ur shoulder .. Aku takley tahan lgy!i need someone to talk to ..!

2010-02-02T06:23:00.000-08:00

dear,i didnt mean to hurt u.
I didnt mean to cheat you but ive to fight for your pride!
I tak suke any guys to look down on you cos i knw,you're much more better and they dont have the rights to say all that stuff to you!
I tk mean nak anythg bad happen to you bt i takley trime if anyone burok2 kan u.
Pls understd b!..

2010-01-31T04:56:00.000-08:00

dear readers..im back&i miss blogging so much!
Me nw in the bus heading home after sending cinta to his camp.
This week,me&cinta did not get to spend time together so much as we only meet today after a week we didnt get to meet each other .
The reason is..yst was father b'dae so me&family went to jb to celebrate his b'dae there.
& n0w,i started to miss cinta..
I cant bear with this situation..
I want to be like how we used to b..

2009-12-29T03:55:00.000-08:00

A lil update abt what happen lst weekends.
For me was a horrid one cos azril bike has been destroyed
by idk who.dont want to point finger to anyone lah..
its a complicated matter.it can destroy friendshship too.
But me and boifie , as per normal,kte chill jer...
per lah korng,aza nyer moto lgi scratch rbk but die chill jer.
tk kecoh2.hehe...sng jer aku bbl.

and boifie,over the weekends,he kept listen&sings
BAD ROMANCE by lady gaga.haiyo..!sat night,ive hurt
boifie feelings *sad face*
he has read a msg that i typed when i were angry and it
was about our relationship,abt my feelings towards him that he didnt even expect.
Jahat Jahat me..has make boifie merajok*sad face*
bt never mind,we talk things out already and we had a wonderful
time together till the next day before he went back to camp.

signing off readers!
*big hug and kissess*

2009-12-25T06:58:00.000-08:00

(Wanna knw what?

This few days,nie bdk cute kn suke nah nk mrh mrh taw.

Mood die tk btl ! like org having mens!haiyo!

i dont like luh mcm gnie bucuk.)

Hmmm.....actually its been quite a long time since i blog.

kn?kn?kn?

So here i am,blogging!*happyface*

Mr.Cute dah went to bed and me having a bad stomachache!!

berrr.....!!!tk suke!tk suke!tk suke!

Wanna blog about today lah.Today,everyone were at

Bf's crib.i mean everyone is;YanaFendi,FaieNasia,EZRA,MeandBf,

AllieAzril.Cos nari kan X'mas day then we dont have plans

so here we are,gathers at Bf's crib.Bf's mum cooked for us and

smue mkn bertambah tambah

cos sedap sgt sgt and dah lamer kte tk mkn

same same.kn kwn kwn?hehe...

Really had a great fun uhs ngn kwn kwn

smue nari and im sure,korng pon same kn?kn?kn?

rindu luhs time ter samer samer ktrumah aza.Tapi nasib today

all can make it for today's gathering.love you guys!*wink*

and me&boifie,we had to have a perfect time together.

He's damn busy nowadays and dh lamer we tk dpt bbl about

our relationship.Miss that luh dear.I really desparate to talk

about us cos i knw there's many thingswe didnt like and

disagree about each other cos i know ive been v.rude to

you nowadays and you,fyi youre getting more selfish.

k lah till here me updating today's blog.

Wanna chit chat with gf.

Signing out readers.With ♥,

NURSYAIRAH.mwarx!

2009-12-07T09:31:00.000-08:00

life is really not a wonderful than what you think
but although its not wonderful than what you expected it
to be,dont give up . Look at the beautiful side of your life
that always make you happy .
This is what i learn from my loverboi.
He always thinks about the happy moments that we
have shared and been through cos this will make him
more happier being with me.

He said that;it takes a word to say I LOVE YOU
but it takes a life time to LOVE YOU.

He's a world to me=He's my everything.

Now i understand why he did this to me.Now i can see
the love he has for me that he didnt give in one shot.
Its nice to be loved bit by bit cos that you'll know,that
person wont stop loving you.

Im so in love with him cos he knows what best for me and for us.

2009-12-04T07:58:00.001-08:00

Im f.bored and that boy is not with me today.He cant get to

book out today and for the rest of the FRIs for 2and a month plus

plus cos he has started his driving course.

Had to suffer for a few months again like as if he's having his BMT again!

Now im waiting for bf to book out tmrw.Seriously f.bored!!

cant otp and msging him cos he's sleeping!

"Wake up luh you slengeh boi!dont sleep like babi!!!

im bored and cant

sleep!!!come on wakey2 and layan me!"sorb..sorb....

You know how to sleep like pig only.

Even babi know when to wake up taw.hehe...

You better layan me tmrw huh!*angry face*

2009-11-26T07:56:00.000-08:00

I know where i stand.
I know that not everybody can accept me . im not perfect and i dont wish to cos i know,i cant.
But i just need love&care in my life.
Ive gone through enough with all the hatred,critics and stuffs not only from the
one that im not closed to but it also from the one i love too.I dont know when
people can really understand what&how i feel .
Eventhough i've told them several times about my feelings,they'll say they
understand but i knew,they didnt and they will not cos they will keep hurting me .
Sometimes feel like ending this life is so much better cos by then,they will actually
appreciate me and really understand how i feel but me being a islam,are forbided
from commiting suicide.
Im getting more worse ! im loosing myself and i didnt know who i can turn to.
I really need help.Need someone that can really really understand me inside out and can
lend me his/her shoulder to cries on.

Signing Out;Nursyairah :(

2009-11-17T06:54:00.000-08:00

Pray to god hoping that boifie will recover soon.

Its been 3days you've been like this.You didnt talk to me

and i cant bear to see you suffer anymore although you

responded to me sometimes.

Ira miss you loads azahar :(

Of all the people,why must be my boifie?he got lots of important things to do.He has to went back camp and etc.Pls avoid him from all evil's eyes and devils .

I want him to recover fast and that "thing" pls do stop

disturbing him.Although his the one who went through all this but i can feel it

too seriously cos boifie,you're my only heart&souls.

I need you to recover fast..

i need you badly now.im lonely dear and it feels so incomplete without hearing your voice and laughter for a day more ever,today is 17th of the month dear..

RECOVER FAST AITE BABY..

I MISS YOU LOADS !!!

2009-11-11T23:49:00.000-08:00

No idea what to blog about but feeling like blogging so i'll blog how i get to know this Mr.Lolok.

The first time i saw him was at Marina's Carls JR,he was drunk&drugged that point of time.He was so "masai" has he just gotten back from work

This is how he will looked like when he's drunk n drugged

....

When Yana Loo introduced me to them,party ppl including Mr.Lok,i didnt know that the guy that yana wants me to "kenal2" with is him.When i get to know about it,i was like..
WHAT?!!This sloppy guy?!Ouh..no!
hehehe....
I didnt know that he was drunk+drugged that day and he's under probation and when i look at him,i was like why this guy is so weird ...
He couldnt walk straight and he's really really sloppy.
But what actually got me attracted to him was , his smile,his cuteness and his BIG ROUND EYES!
But we did not talk to each other until the time we were at Supreme Court when i told the Pary.ppl,i cant stand the coldness.From there it started.The party.ppl told him to hugged me to keep me warm and he did!wuhooo...!i was like on cloud nine..hehe...

first-he hugged me
second-i layed down on his arm
then we started to talk.
hehehe...naughty naughty me !

When he send me home,i was waiting for him to ask for my number.
waiting...
waiting...
waiting...
till we reached under my void deck,i was still waiting but he didnt..
i was a lil upset and i thought that was the last time im gonna meet him.but NO!
When i get home i was smiling all the way whenever i thinks about him until,i fall asleep.Then when i woke up that afternoon,i was thinking whether i should ask his num from yana or shouldnt i..
Then i decided to ask his number from yana and texted him straight after.
But he didnt reply to my msg and i was like dissapointed and down for a moment.I thought,he's not interested in knowing me but later that night,i got his msg and i was like smiling,laughing,jumping at home cos im too excited!!!!hehehe...
From there,we started to know each other deeper and started to fall in love..chey!!!heees!
Getting to know him deeper,is awesome!he really makes my day everyday when im with him nor we were OTP.

I Love Him So Much and theres no other Love Story,like ours!

IRAZA , Since 17 February

2009-11-11T11:22:00.000-08:00

ITS LIKE NOW OR NEVER , Love ..

I admit that im becaming more selfish and rude to you

eventhough you were nice to me sometimes .

Sorry to hurt you in anyways dear,

But youve to know that my love for you is getting greater

and wider than before that is why my jealousy is controlling over me and ive realised

that i should stop that before it goes further and make our relationship more worsen

morever now our relationship is starting to be on the rocks lately .

But i also do hope that you will do something about our relationship and consider

about my feelings too when you wanna do something dear .

Im so obsessed with you dear and will always be you.

Im so in love with you dear and will always be you

I dont wanna loose you now,

I dont wanna loose you than,

I dont wanna loose you forever.

Wanna you for me,wanna you the only one who keep saying i miss you&i love you baby,

hugging me,kissing me and cuddling me whole life.

Wanna you,whom i shared my life with till im old and ugly and till my very last breath.

Hearts;

xoxoNurSyairahxoxo

2009-11-06T20:38:00.000-08:00

I dont know whats wrong with me now .

Im a bad girlfriend to boyfriend and
a bad daughter to my parents .
and im bad to everyone .

I lost myself ! i dont know what has happen
to me ..
im not like before . i can feel that im totally
a different NurSyairah now .

2009-11-05T04:47:00.000-08:00

This gastric is killing me right
nw !i try to endure the pain but
feel like crying!!! :(

Boyfriend is sleeping beside me now
and i dont know who i can complain
about my painess ..
Uuurrrgh!!!!!!Aaargh!!!!!! GOSH!!

2009-11-04T00:20:00.000-08:00

"Abeh u tk understand i langsong !".(him)

..I tk fhm u langsong ker b?ker u yg tk fhm i ?
u ckp u jer slalu kene fhm i and saper nk gy fhm u bt do u ever
try to understand me at the first place ?
Jgn main ckp bey tak fikir . U susah nk dgr kate i skg .
U susah nk turut kn kemahuan i skg . Mcm maner i nk fhm and
turutkn kemahuan u lau u sendiri tknk give and take ?
did u realise abt this?did u ever think abt it ?

All u know is just to be angry when i kept nagging at u .
U keep saying that i never even tries to understand u,bt
do u??
haisss....
I know u did give me the freedom .Eg;i can go out with
friends .
Bt did u ever realise tht eventhough im with my friends,
i know how to divide my attention into two .
I think and i know tht i never neglect u before when
im outside with my friends .

Wht more do u want frm me Aza?

For my part,i just wanna u to listen
to me sometimes and also do think abt my feelings too
dont think abt ur enjoyment with ur friends and dont be
selfish.im ur girlfriend not ur past-time!Its not tht i dont
let u went out with ur friends bt please do think abt me.
Whenever i msg or call please do answer it.thts all and
i dont think thts hard enough to understand and follow
and do u realise tht im angry with u
whenver ure outside with ur friends,its all
because, u never did what i ask to.

DID I EVER DO THT TO YOU huh KHAIRUL AZAHAR?!

2009-10-29T03:54:00.000-07:00

OCTOBER'S2009 CELEBRATIONS ..

WE HAVE .....

Diyana's 17th Bdae celebration

@Marina Square&Marina Barrage ,

IRAZA 8 Monthsary

@Marina Square&Marina Barrage ,

Effendi's 19th Bdae celebration

@Fish&Co dhoby Ghaut&Cash studio

XoXoXo

2009-09-17T22:29:00.001-07:00

SAF BMTC ePosting Order
NRIC:
S8927254H
Name:
KHAIRUL AZAHAR BIN ITHNIN

Comd SAF BMTC wishes you all the best in your future posting.

Your Posting Order is listed below:

1.
You are posted to
TPT CENTER (WEST).
2.
Your vocation is
DRIVER.
3.
Your are to report to:
Jurong Camp, Guard Room.

Reporting Date/Time:
22/09/2009 at 0800 hrs.

Person to report to:
Chief Clerk

Contact Number:
6410-4371/4375

You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force.
4.
Special Instruction:
No Camera Handphone is allowed. You are not required to bring along the SAF issued items given during BMT, except for PT Kit. Check with your unit whether you are required to stay in.

2009-09-08T00:36:00.000-07:00

I prayed to god,ask for protection

for me and boyfriend,not to separate us in

future and make us strong to face whatever

challenge we've to cos i knw,he's the one

for me and my instinct really tells me tht he

is the one i should share my life with and

he's the one who could lead me to the

correct path in future.Whatever happens,

although it involve the third party,i'll stay

strong and fight for our love and not

let our love to be destroyed by others.

With you,i can find happiness and always

feel safe in your arms.You're the first one

tht i love wholeheartedly and treasure alot

and i knw tht no one can ever replace you in

my heart cos you're part of me .

2009-09-08T00:23:00.000-07:00

1523hrs

Currently at boyfriend's place with his sis only,

FB-ing , Youtube-ing and blogging . His prnts and other sibling has went

out to Tekong for his P.O.P celebration . Atlst!

Me,has not been gg back hm for a few days !(naughty,naughty!)

Miss my bear2 , my pillows and my room!hehe...

bt wht to do,my weekends are meant for babykush and nw i still

have cant go home as boyfriend will be having a week break

so i've to spent all the time i had with this boy.

and today,frens are having exams

,cant do much bt only can wish

them luck for exams as i was debar frm this

semester examination! *sad*

2009-09-06T23:31:00.000-07:00

GIRLS OUTING On 5thSEPTEMBER09 First Girls Outing with Ain and without Allie.

Me,Yana&Nasia headed to marina frm Yana's Place

to meet Ain as she work at Suntec

Thought of Break-Fast together bt end up,smue tk Puase.hehe..

So we had Our lunch at Marina's LJS.
After tht,we head to Marina's Starbucks,to chill

and smoke while we think of where to head after tht.

So the plan is we go for Karaoke somewhere near

Paya Lebar.

Then ltr night,the Boys,Fendi,Aza,Hafiz joined
we girls.

Me&Ain thought of gg Back hm after our Boyfriend

fetches us bt then Yana plan us to continue Karaoke-ing for another

2hrs.hehehe...

So we continue to enjoy till 1am.
---

2009-08-12T01:12:00.000-07:00

STAY STRONG

WHATEVER IT IS,THIS IS A CHALLENGE

FOR BOTH OF US!

i guess its true what you said .

We have to be strong and overcome whatever

obstacles tht come in our way

for the sake of our LOVE!

In the name of love,willing to sacrifice

whatever it takes jst to be together till eternity!

Wanna him be yours.

Wanna her be yours.

Wanna both of you meant for each other.

Stay Strong and never give up on your love.

Never ever give up whenever you have a

lil'conflicts between each other.Try to

solve it together and frm there you'll realise,hw much

you both love each other.

---IRAZA---

2009-07-26T21:51:00.000-07:00

-Snow City(Boriiiiiiing!)

-Candlelite Dinner(Expensive!)

-Singapore Flyers(NoComment!)

Jst couldnt make up our mind where could we go to spend
time together .
Places tht we can enjoy the Scenery&have fun together.
Ermmmm....S'pore has been so boring!Ntg new..Errr...!
Anione do have any idea where's the best place for
a couple to have fun together?hehehe....
No way it could be sentosa as Yana & Fendi has been
there to have fun and they has tried Out almost everythg
thts fun there!haissssss........
Boifie and me wanted to try out new things & went to places
tht YanaFendi,AllieAzril,NasiaFaie has nvr done or gone to!
lols.

ME:B!candlelite dinner nk?
Syg:Ermmm mau pe?Tak pena sei.u pena?
ME:Haha...tkpernah.hehe..bt ktne sey?
Syg:nnt i check.tpi mahal kan b?
Me:Alah b..mkn sey n kte tk pernah2 kn uat bende
yg romantic2 gtu..hahaha..
Syg:hehe.ya eh. Okay go.
-------
ME:B,yana ckp candlelite dinner mahal uhs.
Syg:kn i dh ckp.
ME:bey hw?
Syg:Ermmm.Lau tk kte buat dinner pat uma ar.
I jadi chef i jadi waiter and i jadi i.

lols.Smue die nk jdi.Bt cant denied luh i think kn my BF
nyer cooking skill is superb!!hehe...
Better then mine sey thts why i love him when he cooked for me
smthg .
Ish!jealous nyer .. hehe...

---

2009-07-20T10:39:00.000-07:00

Tanx boifie for everythg!i really appreciate
whatever you've done for me .
You're really the sweeeeeetest person in my life.
You'll always be there for me wherever you're,
whenever i need you!
Tanx for the shoulder for me to cry on and be
my listening ears . Tanx for not leaving me all alone
whenever i need you ! i wont give a damn wht ppl gg
to say abt you , bad mouthing you to me and stuff as
long i knw tht we truly love each other alots.

P.S;TO WHOEVER AND WHEREVER YOU ARE,SAY WHATEVER YOU
LIKE..DOESNT EVEN MATTER ITS ABT ME OR BF COS AS LONG
AS I KNW THT IM HAPPY WITH BF,IM COOL WITH THT.
COS WHATEVER I DOES HE'LL ALWAYS BE THERE TO SUPPORT ME
THROUGH OUT AND I DONT NEED UR COMMENTS
B-I-A-T-C-H !:)

2009-07-13T02:27:00.000-07:00

Love the way we communicate yst .
i had so much fun talking to syg yst .
We debate abt whose love is more ..hehe..
he's so cute!loving plak tu...through our
conversation yst,i strted to realise hw much he
loves me . The way he get jealous abt smthg..alamak!
cute luh plak.hehe..and one more thing,smlm,die tkder
mrh2 pon . He said tht yst i really make him happy . Aku
pandai jage ati die .lols.*blush*
Bt i think,aku lgi happy daripada die . he was like sooo
loving!gosh!kn best lau hari2 bbl ngn die mcm gnie bt wht
to do..there's ups&dwns we

have to went through in
rlthnshp . I think if a couple did not even quarell,tk fun uh!
hehe..cs lau gadoh kn,dari situ,ter will learn hw to appreciate
one anthr and the rlthnshp !tpi nt always luh ehk.
chey...!die dh bbl uh...hehe..
and one more thing membr mrh sey lau aku ckp ader org
laen nie die nyer syg jgk . lols . he dont like !he said tht
im the only one die nyer syg . hehe .. gud gud cs i too wont
make him as anyone nyer syg .
im his property,his mine bby!
and knw wht?!its like finally,i get to talk abt our future with him.
hmm..this happen a few days bk .haha...!i knw lh we're only abt
5mths together aku dh fikir psl nie smue ..ckp lh per korng
nk ckp i did all this cs i do really love him and nk die utk
aku sorng !
A'ah luh ku selfish . asl?hehe....
wanna knw tk wht we're talking abt?hahax..!we're talking abt
getting engaged luh . lols . Padahal plan aft he serve NS nk tunang
ku dh kecoh2 ehk ..hehe...wht to do..im excited babe !
atleast ehk nw i gt one mission to achieved inn life !hahax!

gotta save money babe frm nw . siak ira ! tk sabar2 .
tpi mesti lh . ppm maner siol tk happy lau mataer die pn ader
intention mcm gnie .hurray2 babe !lols .
kk ira get over it bru 5 mths siol . jgn mengharap sgt and berangan
kaez??...heeeheeesss.........

IBU:ira,pakcik bwk balik manggis byk taw
ira tk dtg sini?
ME:alamak...too bad luh bu tekak ira bengkak
btw dian kirim slm .
IBU:btl ke..ke ira nk duga ibu...
ok lah ezra nk ambek laptop dia balik hanya sampai sini je lah.
ME:btl . tkkn ira maen2 .
IBU:byk minum air masak dan komor2 air sama garam jadi tekak
nye cepat sembuh .
ME:ok!..tanx fer ur concern bu:)
IBU:ok . bye!
ME:byezz...gudnyte!
IBU:nite...sweet dreamzzzzzzzzzzz....
ME:mimpi manis . bye!

2009-07-10T10:26:00.000-07:00

me: B, i takot sey u'll go bk to dian(ex-gf)..
haisss...
i asek terfk psl tu jer .
him: B,dont worry k bby. That will nvr happen.
me: mane tawu..i tk setanding ngn die.bey die
mcm bgi tanda2 die masey ade feeling for u.
him: dun say that lah b. What makes u say that?
she gt bf already what.
me: hu noes ...
Aniting can happen.mayb nt nw bt ltr .
him: jgn merepek lah . i told u right i gt no
feeling for her already .
me: bt i jst cant stop myself frm thinking
abt tht matter .
Day by day,im getting more worried lgi2
u nye msn,fb ume ade die..
him: i knw hw u feel . But dont worry k bby.

Hope you really knw hw i feel . I jst dont knw why i
feel so insecure . The Only thing i knw is tht i do really
love you . ily wholeheartedly like you do ! bt 'pencuri
maner nk mengaku kn ..' haissss............
i trust you k dear . hope what you said all true .
"IT WILL NVR HAPPEN "

2009-06-30T09:29:00.000-07:00

hey readers im bk!
i think its been days i did not blog .. hehehe .. due to bf is ard!
yesh!his bk frm tekong aft 2wks bby !so i need to treasure the
time im with him bfore he book-in so no time to blog luh .
hmm...recently,theres misunderstanding btwn
me and him abt 'him'!
haisss...again!haiyo!im sick and tired actually bcs everytime
we quarrel,its abt him!hope this will be the lst time..jst
couldnt take it anymore bcs i dont wanna see bf get so angry
bcs of that moron!
I dont want him to hurt himself bcs of that moron!
BBy,jst wanna let u knw that i dont like to
see u hurting urself cs if u hurt urself dear,that
means u're hurting me too as u're part of me bf!i didnt
mean to make u angry as u knw,me too dont like to see u being
angry especially abt 'him'!as he's the one who tries to make us
break up!
hmmm..promise to bf this will be the very lst time i repeat my
mistakes.my very stupidmistakes!dont wanna see him angry,
dont wanna see him hurting himself and dont wanna him to leave
me cs i really really do love this mr.Botak alot!hehe...thats why nw
im at yana's place cs i get to knw frm lil'bro that moron wanna
come over to my place!so as to avoid him and to avoid bf frm thinking
negatively,i plan to spend my night at yana's place!isint that great bf?
i'll do more things and i'll sacrifice whatever it takes to proof to u that
im no longer have feelings for him and nw i belongs to u only :)*WINK*

2009-06-12T04:39:00.000-07:00

Ouh ...
damn fucking bOred !! and ii started tO miss BF ...
Awwwwwwww ................ !!! 2 wks seii .. 2 wks babe !

Never did bOth Of us have tO seprate frOm each Other fOr this lOng periOd Of
time . I really cant stOp crying when i think bOut der 2 wks ! OH Gosh !!
i'll realli miss his laughter , smile , cute lOOks and his funni faces ! damn it ! der mOst
thing that i'll miss bOut him is his .... jeng .. jeng.. jeng ... his armpit yg masham tu !lol .
that always makes me gO tO sleep .. hehehe ...
My life will be cOMpletely different w/O him ard nw . nO One will nagged at me , nO One
will make me LOL ,nO One will pat my head when i want tO sleep , etc .
Easy say , i'll b loner lah nw ..heh .
hmm....nvm , i tink , i've tO hang Out wth party ppl sO O prevent wOrrying bOut him ..
hehehe ... "sOrry belOved BF , its nOt that i dOnt wanna think bOut u bt whenever i think bOut
u dear , i'll strt tO CRY !!!!!!!!!!!" :(

2009-05-28T06:25:00.000-07:00

hey readers ! sOrry fOr the lil' late

update abOut my Birthday Party .

yup,yup .. abOut my 18th B'day Party

that i wrOte in my previOus pOst .

sO .... here it gOes ...

Starting with this Birthday Cake.
hmm .. guess what ?! This B'dae Cake was
bOught by my BELOVED BF..!hehe..!
Tanx BF fOr the cake&present!
and ILYSM !

And knOw why BF pOse like that?
he said that,"NO MORE HENDERSON WAVES!"
LOL.

because the next day,we went tO

HORT PARK/HENDERSON WAVES

(telOk blangah hill)

sOon we reach the tOp part Of the place,Bf and me

quickly eat the fOOd that we bOught befOre gOing tO H.W.

and this Bf of mine whO dOnt care what

ppl wOuld think , he just tOOk Off his clOthes

while eating as he cant stand that he keeps perspiring

while walking up ..

After that we tOOk pictures Of us

and this picture turn Out tO be nice althOugh we use timer ..

:)hehe ...

i remember abOut this picture tOO .

BF-"jgn pki flash lah.tk lawa lah"

ME-"asl?tkder flash lgi lawa per ! "

End up i agree tO what he said . hehehe ....

he keeps making funny faces when taking picture

while walking back .

and finally i tink this is the nicest Picture we tOOk !

*WINK*

2009-05-09T12:55:00.000-07:00

I thOught after that day incident when i was drunk and i tOld u what i feel ,
u understand me and knOw what i actually want but i tink it's still
the same .
u knOw that i really need u nOw tO give me the lOve , care and attentiOn
cOz i cant get that frOm my family .. u seems tO be dOnt really care abOut hOw i feel ..
SOmetimes i just dOnt understand why i have tO be treated this way ..
am i tOO bad and dOesnt give what u want all this while ? ..
im sick and tired Of crying and im nOt that strOng tO gO thrOugh this kind Of thing
every single day dear ..

GOSH ! CAN ANIONE UNDERSTAND THAT I REALLY DESPERATE FOR LOVE , CARE
AND ATTENTION NOW ? !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-01T08:39:00.000-07:00

im nOt saying that ii want yOu tO let me gO ..
im not saying that ii cant endure anymOre but until when ? ..
my purpose Of saying that because ii want yOu tO realise
and dO sOmething fOr Our relatiOnship .." Our
relatiOnshp dear !it dOesnt belOng tO me alOne Or yOu!
but it belOngs tO bOth Of us .. !"

ii never said that in Our relatiOnship , yOu the Only One
whO makes mistakes everytime.ii admit that ii tOO have did sOmething
that make u cant trust me anymOre .
yOu knOw that i cant leave yOu and will nOt leave yOu .. ii just want you tO make an
effort tO dO sOmething for Our relatiOnshp .
hOpe yOu will nOt take it tO heart .. im just telling yOu the fact kaez dear !
nOw i Only have yOu tO dependz On .. my life is sO meaningless because nO One
seems tO care bout me nOw including my family that is why ii want yOu tO
stay by my side , when im with yOu ! i need yOu tO shOwer me with yOur
because i really need it nOw dear !

2009-05-01T02:38:00.001-07:00

My belOved bOifren , i just dont

knOw hOw lOng mOre i can be with

yOu . I dOnt really understand why we're tOgether,

what the purpOse Of having relatiOnshp

while yOu keep hurting me and sOmetimes

yOu just cant be bOthered with me ! yOu just

dOnt want tO listen tO what i feel and never try tO

understand . . yOu keep saying that i always

cOmplaint .

Did yOu ever realise that what i did all this while

just want the best fOr Our relatiOnshp bt yOu acted that

as if im a cOntrOl queen and never try tO understand

yOu bt actually yOu knOw what its yOu whO never

try tO understand me .

i willing to change my attitude tOwards bOifren .

i always give in just fOr yOur

sake and the sake Of Our relatiOnshp

but cant understand

why its hard fOr yOu tO give in sOmetimes

YOu keep hurting me and make me cry eventhOugh yOu've

said sOrry the last time .. actually a few times yOu have

said sOrry but yOu repeat yOur mistakes .

When can we actually end this bOifren ? i knOw there's

ups and dOwns in relatiOnshp but we cant gO with

the flOw my dear , we have tO make an effOrt and

sacrifice fOr each Other happiness sOmetimes

and yOu knOw what im really scared

of lOOsing yOu boifren !

2009-04-24T04:31:00.000-07:00

- ^^*KHAIRUL AZAHAR*^^-
ayang ,
ii really lOve you lOtz dO you knOw that ? ..
ii've Onli One fear nOw in my life that is lOOsing you .. i really can't affOrd
tO lOOse you bcOz ii've given yOu my lOve whOleheartedly!!!!!
althOugh sOmetimes you hurt my feelings ,
my lOve fOr yOu has never change and will never change !!!
You're the perfect guy for me dear ! and you're the guy that im lOOking fOr all this while ..
KnOw wart ?!before ii know you , i've dreamt abOut a
guy befOre whO always hurt me but deep inside ,bt actually he lOves me alOt . He dOesn't shOw by actiOn but thru wOrds . ii've dreamt Once that he express his lOve
fOr me thru msgs and that was exactly what yOu did .

I DID NOT LIE!actually ii just dOn't wanna tell ..
When im with yOu , i've been thrOugh with sO many dejavu , ii just
remain silent .

>>> Syg , ii knOw yOu can't forgive me ..
But i dOn't mind bcOz ii nOe itz my fault .One thing that i just want
yOu tO knOw that , ii really really lOve yOu !
really really dO baby !

2009-04-22T04:14:00.000-07:00

sO sweet Of u my lOve , i felt very guilty aft reading the msg dat u've save in my hp . im sOri that i kept accusing u for nOt lOving me sincerely ....
i kept saying that u were in lOve with me just fOr ur own pleasure and nOw i feel sO guilty fOr saying that tO u !! i've misjudge the lOve u've given me . im sOri dear bt sometimes u were the One whO makes me feel this way . bt nO matter what , same gOes tO me , i lOve u&Only u !!! sincerely frm the bOttOm Of my heart baby !

2009-04-12T21:09:00.000-07:00

11 april , we party ppl head tO marina tO have fun as usual getting drunk and stuff withOut
Our mOst favOurite gerlfren . Yana LOO ... ! we miss her sO much that day withOut her present , Our Outing On that day were such a bOre ... bt der plan has tO cOntinue .

Fendi that has tO be single On dat day , really make us pitied him as Yana , his gerlfren were nOt arOund . We try tO entertain him as we dO nOt want him tO be lOnely .. hehehe ..... his reactiOn were sO cute and make us realised hOw much he miss his gerlfren when she's nOt arOund On that day and we knOw hOw he lOve Yana lOO !! and allie as usual , she will be sO nOisy when drunk but On that day , was that wOrst , her reactiOn really make me cant believe that , that were Allie ! hehehe .... she's sO damn hyper ! it really scare me ! hehe!
Ezra and luthi whO were suppOsed tO jOin us that day when tO zOuk last minute aft ezra get a call frOm Abdullah bt they jOin us after that at esplanade at abOut 3 plus ..
Abdullah whO were drunk , entertain us when he get there .. .. .. diz jOker did really a gOOd jOb sO that we wOn't feel bOred while waiting fOr the first bus tO get hOme !

Then at abOut 6.30 , we all make Our way tO the bus stOp and me which suppOsed tO
went hOme straight On that day , suddenly change my mind when this boifren Of mine psychO me nOt tO gO hOme first as i need tO take my schOOl uniform frOm faie with his sad lOOk but i knOw actually he's lazy tO send me hOme .. hehe .. bad bOifren !and there i am at abOut 7 plus a.m at bOifren place and bOifren irritates me On that mOrning as he's having he's hangOver ... wakakaka .... irritating but cute !!!!

2009-04-07T05:49:00.000-07:00

12JUNE'09 iz the day i'll start tO miss him ...
3rd Of April , get tO knOw he has tO serve his NATIONAL SERVICE ...
everybOdy seems tO be sO sad when get tO knOw abOut it .. ! but when the time that
me , yana , allie , kak aisyah and the Otherz whO were at hOme get tO know the news first , der bOyz , fendi , azril , ezra and including my belOved baby , were not at hOme at that time Of pOint ..

ME and Allie realli feel sO sad when we get to knOw bout it .. Because Allie was worried that she wOn't be able tO celebrate her birthday with my bOyfriend .. but i just have tO act strOng because i dO nOt want tO think tOO much abOut it but what i knOw , i Only left with abOut 2 mOnths to spent time with him and i must really treasure it and spent almOst all my free time with him !

i'll be lOnely withOut yOu arOund dear and i think its hard to hear me laugh anymOre when yOu were nOt beside me ...

2009-04-04T04:14:00.000-07:00

Thursday, April 2, 20091702 // 2:52 PM Nursyairah,
how could i be so harsh on you ? even if i hurt u alot throughout our relationship , i hope the love towards me will never fade. I realised that ive been such a bad bf that Cant give you the happiness that u ever wanted. cant give you the smile but only tears on the cheek.
But baby i want you to know that you're the stars that shine my empty sky, you fully filled the empty space in my heart. your smile really makes my day. You're the dream girl that ive always ever wanted.
Baby im sorry if i keep hurting you Over and over again, iam really sorry.
I LOVE YOU BABY>>>DIZ IZ wart he pOst fer me On der BOYZ blOg...
sO cwit Of hym ... !!!!!ILY BABY !

2009-04-03T04:02:00.000-07:00

Being bOrn in diz type Of family itz hard fOr me ..

i can't carry this burden alone ...

i can't face this alOne ! why dO my parentz treat me this way ? !

isn't it tOO cruel ? ! they just give me their respOnsibility and just ignOre bOut me nOw

even fOr my schOOl expenses ...

is this a gOOd example fOr parentz tO shOw tO their child .. ?

haiz ....

khairul Azahar , u are all i need nOw dear !

2009-04-03T03:46:00.000-07:00

he PROMIZ me not tO club until ii can gO clubbing .....
bt tOdae the bOyz are gOing tO s.james . gOd damn it ! hate it !!
althOugh todae,we girls decided tO gO fOr drinking while the bOys club,i feel insecure !
i want him tO be with me when im drunk !!..haiz .. dOnt knOw what tO say anymOre.He knOw that ii dislike him clubbing bt he stl insists On gOing!why itz hard for hym tO understand me ?? ...
>> kaez kaez ira ...chill aite !!
>>i try tO understand hym and jst let hym enjOy with his friend .. bt i cant !
>>chill aite ! give and& take bby . isin't it fair?he club , u went drinking with the girls..
>>bt he has prOmised me!and nOw he break his promises .. !hw ?
>>y nOt u gO and negOtiate with him ?? ....
>>ii cant ! i dOnt knOw hw !

AAAAAARGHH ..............!!!GOD HELP ME !

2009-04-03T02:44:00.000-07:00

4 april 'o9 .. at abOut 1.30 am ...
yana , fendi , ezra and& kak aisyah went tO bangkit cOffeeshOp while me and& BF jst stay at hOme n have a gOOd talk abt Our relatiOnshp .
me and& BF then read azril's life jOurnal .. hmmm ..
there's sOmething that he said that i think he's referring tO me :( . gOd damn it !
i then tOld BF that i've tO leaved him if the BOYS stl cant accept me and cant accept fOr whO i am . nO matter what he have tO accept it !
then he lOOked really upset ... haisssss ... IM CONFUSED AND SERBA SALAH !!!!

2009-04-01T09:32:00.000-07:00

BEFORE HE CROSSESS MY LIMIT , I THINK I SHOULD TEXT HIM THIS ...
>>>>do u reallly accept me as ur GF Or ur past tyme?u gurau ngn i kasar2,sakitkn ati i bleh?
bler part i,u mengamOk semcm!plz get this straight i gt feelingz k ! i pn mcm u luh b sensitive.
tpi i bertempat k.slame te mataer,te gadOh ,u ade prasan tk sape yg pujok sape lebih?sape yg btl2 try tO jage ati siape?plz reflect this&dOnt b sO egOistic.all this while,i btl rase i yg byk sakit ati n,byk menangis.bt tu pOn u uat bOdO.plz lh ade belas kasihan sikit.i tgh ade famili prOb bt u as a bf u nOe wart u shud dO bt instead Of tkmO kasi i lgi hurt,u keep hurting me <<<<

2009-04-01T07:58:00.000-07:00

Outside westview pri

Otw tO westview pri tO see der guyz play sOccer

FOllOw the bOys kehendak ..Cant dO anything cumer bleh ekOtkn

smate mate nk dOrng Happy .. :) ..

and at lst kte merane cOz the wheather is fucking hOt !!!

2009-04-01T07:14:00.000-07:00

HEY SUPERMAN ! there's Only One thing abt eu i think u shOud change ....

u're sO egO until i felt dat i cant jOke ard with eu anymOre ... eu're being tOO sensitive ...

pls .... i had enOugh Of guyz being tOO sensitive ...

SO sOrry Superman if my wOrds are tOO harsh !...bt nO matter what,i just wanna eu tO knOw that i really LOVE eu !! ....

2009-03-17T11:52:00.000-07:00

i nOe i've tO accept diz .. .. ..
wherever ii gO , ppl wOn't lyk me ard .. .. ..
sOme will bitch abOut me .. cz Of jealOusii .. ii tink ..
ii tink im being tO kind tO ppl datz y dey take advantage Of me ..!
wen iim dOwn , nObOdi realii cre fer me .. .. ..especialli my famili ..

2009-03-16T22:18:00.000-07:00

170209

althOugh we have been tOgether fer Onlii 1MTH ..

bt tOO manii ting has happen in Our rltnshp .. ..

nO matter wart Or hw bad he iz , i'll stl lOve hym !

tO me , he'z nOt my bOyfriend bt he'z my husband cz i realii cre&lOve hym lOt ! i realii lOve hym whOleheartedlii&willing tO sacrifice aniting fer hym .. ! even im willing tO change watever he dislike bOut my character juz tO shOw hym hOw much i lOve hym !!!

KHAIRUL AZAHAR , U'RE EVERITING TO ME NOW .. .. ..

U'RE MY HART&SOUL !!

2009-03-16T08:19:00.000-07:00

ilovehym !

ily ! SUPERMAN ! ...
i realii love hym sO much ! he'z my HART&SOUL .. !
mySUPERMAN der mOst preciOus persOn iin my lyf nOw ... !
ii appreciate hym lOtz .. realii lOve der wae u treat me , der lOve n cre u've
given me aLL diz while , realii melt my hart .... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
especialli wen im wif u at ur hOuz all diz while , u feed me , slip wif me .. hug&cuddle me lyk ur baby ..
makez me lOve u mOre !! im verii fOrtunate tO have u az my boyfriend ! gOd iz verii understanding cz he nOe dat i need a guy lyk u !!

I REALII REALII LOVE EU SO MUCH !

2009-03-11T11:36:00.000-07:00

12 MARCH '09 , 2.39 AM

ApOlOgising tO hym thru msg ..
hmm ... actualli der reasOn dat he's angry wif me funni sia ..
*cant tell ,privacy ... hehe ...

but cute sia he .. i tOld hym i hate hyz attitude wen we quarell
.... he lyk tO remain quite ....dat is wart i dun lyk cz fer me itz a bad wae
tO sOlve a prOb in a rlthnshp ...
and& nOe wart he said .. -yayaya . i try tO chnge my attitude
k dear . im sorry .

MELT MY HART CEY !

2009-03-11T04:44:00.000-07:00

yesterdae , 10 march '09

sedih per aleh aleh smlm die mrhkn aku .. talk tO hym baek baek pOn nO respOnse ....
AARGH !!! ..... punye lah susah nak pujOk nie khairul Azahar ..
dah few hOurz aru die cOOl dOwn ...
haix ... saket per ati ngn faie and& nasia die bbl tapi lau aku
bbl ngn die .. uat bOdO sak .... !
hehehe .... bt nO matter wart , i still love u dear .. hahax ..
u verii verii bad u noe superman ..... !

2009-03-11T04:23:00.000-07:00

11 MARCH 2009 , 7.23 P.MY

YANA , FENDI , NASIA , FAIE , ME AND& mySUPERMAN ... at mySUPERMAN,s place ..
damn bOred .. dun nOe wart tO dO ... dOing Our Own stuff ..

Nasia-sleeping ,Yana-juz lying ard*tk abiz abiz ngn flu die ,
fendi-playing PSP , mySUPERMAN-play comp game .. and&
me ... hehe ... blog lah den wart ...

BORED SIA ... !!!

BAD UH mySUPERMAN ... tk entertain me .. :( ...

2009-03-11T02:48:00.000-07:00

WONDERFUL GERLFRENZ

U ALL ARE SUCH A WONDERFUL GERLFRENZ ..

IM VERII FORTUNATE TO HAVE U,GERLFERNZ IN MY LYF !!

2009-03-11T02:31:00.000-07:00

VALENTINE '08

2009-03-11T02:19:00.000-07:00

140209 .. deR mOst memOrablE daE fEr miE ...

His the first persOn actually , the first guy .. whO gaved me flOwer ... AWWW ... ! sO sweet Of eu

SUPERMAN !!!